am still in the whole wondering stage. And the what ifs. I mean, EVERYTHING I have read shows a poor prognosis for my dad. But it was caught early. Just 3 months ago he was checked and was given the all clear. So yes, fast moving but caught quickly. But I am so damn far away. What if this is his last xmas? Our plans aren't to visit until April. These plans were in place before the news... I do not want my father spending his Xmas without us. Our family is very small. There isn't anyone left on my fathers side apart from me and the kids. The family on my mothers side is tiny. And if my dad is terminal, thankfully everyone over on this side of the pond understands that I will spend a 6 months back home if that is needed. Without them. I have hopefully a lifetime with my husband and kids. But if my father is terminal, I want to spend my time with him.